Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
Find another friend and you discard
As you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between
Sorry for the billionth time.
Sorry for not blogging.
Honestly speaking, I don't think anyone cares and I just visit my blog when I'm at my highest or lowest points of life. It's obvious where I'm at, at the moment.
I don't enjoy the fact that people from the other side of the world can read my posts, therefore I keep private issues minimal.
However, I remember the main reason why I started this blog about 7 years ago.
Writing helps me reflect and express the anger, hate and negative feelings I bottle up from the week. Not necessarily a mask I've been wearing all week in public but I've been keeping my emotions at bay.
Honestly speaking, I've been an absolute wreck.
The feeling of losing all your sources of strength and support is a terrible feeling.
You feel betrayed, scared and vulnerable.
For me I have that extra strength of god but falling away from him recently has taken a toll. I'm just lost.
Dad told me to refer to psalms 23 when I shared my problems with him.
1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, [a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
The valley of death verse is my spiritual comfort food.
It was the verse which I repeated in the dark when I thought there was a monster under my bed & it was the verse which helped me get through reality.
Well it's close to 5am and I have probably bored you with my troubles ( if you were even nice enough to read about them ).
For that, I deeply appreciate your time and perhaps concern ? Maybe you're just bored.
I'll end on a happy note.
I went on a little trip with my sister today. We had lunch at Movida and had a shop around Sound Warf. It was a brilliant day, it certainly contributed to building up my cheer. I love you Ta :D



I also decided to purchase some cereal, the choices hurt my head :/
That was only one of the brands I could buy !
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